Excruciating Agony: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with severe pain behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.
Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Ancient medical records propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by international medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need greater education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.
Official guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.
But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a